A Very Sober Christmas Story

Well, it is official, my 2021 Christmas was a sober one and I am glad, because I did not wake up with a fucked-up hangover and a mind full of regrets. I am not going to lie, I did have a few urges to drink, but that had to do more with my weekend and holiday drinking habit, which started when I was a teenager. My crazy and weird brain looks at the weekends and holidays as all I can drink days. I know That’s fucked up and hard to admit, but I must face the truth. The only thing that I have left to do is to retrain my brain, but I do not have a problem with that, because I am all in.

Also, it was a quiet Christmas eve, and I am guessing that the surging cases of Omicron in New York City had a lot to do with it. I know some people, who did not allow family and friends who were not vaccinated, to join their Christmas party, to protect themselves and their family. But it is what it is.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Scared Sober: The Beginning.

Good morning boys, girls and others, my name is Tony, and I am an alcoholic.

I’m not going to waste your time by telling you my entire drinking history, but two things that I would like to mention are, that I started drinking and smoking cigarettes and weed with my friends back in the mid 80’s when I was a teenager, and that on Thursday December 9 2021, I was admitted for four days into the hospital, because my liver was inflamed, after seven days of continuous binge drinking.

The reason that I say that I was scared sober is, because when the liver doctors came to see me on that Saturday, they explained to me, that I did not have any permanent damage, BUT… to take this as a second chance, because the next time, I might not be so lucky. They told me straight out, that I MUST stop drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes and take better care of myself. I told them that I see this second chance given to me as a sign and that they could be sure that I would never drink again.

Since I have always been a weekend binge drinker, who could go for months without alcohol, getting sober has not been that hard at all, in fact, today is my 15th sober day and I feel great. The hardest thing for me to do is to quit smoking cigarettes, but I am not going to go crazy by quitting both at the same time, first I am going to manage my drinking, then the smoking.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 all!